I have waited, dreaded and been so excited for this appointment for 5 long weeks. If it weren't for having access to fetal dopplers at work, I don't know how I mentally would have made it without seeing or hearing Pico for 5 weeks, but we did make it.
Pico is apparently advanced. Like right now, in what is supposed to be the point in my pregnancy that the baby is lifted off my bladder...Pico is head down using my bladder as a pillow, and likes it there very much...you can't get zym to wiggle or roll away from it, so we have yet to see our baby's full face...ever...We also didn't see a stomach bubble, but that just means I get to have another ultrasound at my next appointment. Oh, the disappointment...
On the flip side, Pico has a "normal" spine, "normal" feet and legs, "normal" hands, "normal" bladder, "normal" kidneys, "normal" diaphragm, "normal' heart, "normal" brain, "normal" cord, I just loved watching Pico take practice breaths, and wiggle. Even though I can feel those wiggles, it's still so surreal seeing a baby...my baby...doing all those things inside my belly. It's still so hard to believe all those things are happening for us. The heart rate was 132, and the estimated weight was 14 oz, which is 2oz ahead of schedule...Pico!!! I ordered a small baby!!!! I may have to start smoking...(I'm kidding...I think...)
We also didn't see gender, ever...which makes my boy theory a little more questionable...BJ and I didn't look away from the ultrasound, and our sonographer didn't purposely look for gender, so we just thought if we saw, we saw, but it would be unconfirmed. Well, it's unconfirmed for everyone involved...Pico will remain gender neutral for the duration...
I am just so thrilled. I'm not too worried about the stomach bubble...just means the baby has not swallowed any fluid at that time. Oh, and fluid, placenta and cord insertion were all normal, too, so go me. Apparently it's only the conception part that's a struggle for me, and I'm very, very thankful.
Other than a little indigestion, everything seems to be going well for me, as well. BP is good, even after not sleeping for 18 hours (I worked night shift before my appointment), so that's good. I'm pretty much rocking maternity threads everyday except for my scrubs...
I'm just happy. Like blissfully happy...about everything...like a moron. I'm enjoying the little projects around the house to get ready for Pico. Next up is having the house ready for the flooring installers, then the chair rail in the nursery, and then we can start moving baby furniture into our "spare" room...which everyday seems closer and closer to being a nursery...which is still crazy in my brain. I swear I look at BJ, and I honestly got to the point that I thought this would never be us. I'm pretty sure he is sick of me asking "did you think we would ever get here?" I'm proof that even a pessimist can get pregnant with fertility treatments. And God knows I am so very thankful. It makes me tear up when I have a moment to accept it. I'm really pregnant...
Pico is apparently advanced. Like right now, in what is supposed to be the point in my pregnancy that the baby is lifted off my bladder...Pico is head down using my bladder as a pillow, and likes it there very much...you can't get zym to wiggle or roll away from it, so we have yet to see our baby's full face...ever...We also didn't see a stomach bubble, but that just means I get to have another ultrasound at my next appointment. Oh, the disappointment...
On the flip side, Pico has a "normal" spine, "normal" feet and legs, "normal" hands, "normal" bladder, "normal" kidneys, "normal" diaphragm, "normal' heart, "normal" brain, "normal" cord, I just loved watching Pico take practice breaths, and wiggle. Even though I can feel those wiggles, it's still so surreal seeing a baby...my baby...doing all those things inside my belly. It's still so hard to believe all those things are happening for us. The heart rate was 132, and the estimated weight was 14 oz, which is 2oz ahead of schedule...Pico!!! I ordered a small baby!!!! I may have to start smoking...(I'm kidding...I think...)
We also didn't see gender, ever...which makes my boy theory a little more questionable...BJ and I didn't look away from the ultrasound, and our sonographer didn't purposely look for gender, so we just thought if we saw, we saw, but it would be unconfirmed. Well, it's unconfirmed for everyone involved...Pico will remain gender neutral for the duration...
I am just so thrilled. I'm not too worried about the stomach bubble...just means the baby has not swallowed any fluid at that time. Oh, and fluid, placenta and cord insertion were all normal, too, so go me. Apparently it's only the conception part that's a struggle for me, and I'm very, very thankful.
Other than a little indigestion, everything seems to be going well for me, as well. BP is good, even after not sleeping for 18 hours (I worked night shift before my appointment), so that's good. I'm pretty much rocking maternity threads everyday except for my scrubs...
I'm just happy. Like blissfully happy...about everything...like a moron. I'm enjoying the little projects around the house to get ready for Pico. Next up is having the house ready for the flooring installers, then the chair rail in the nursery, and then we can start moving baby furniture into our "spare" room...which everyday seems closer and closer to being a nursery...which is still crazy in my brain. I swear I look at BJ, and I honestly got to the point that I thought this would never be us. I'm pretty sure he is sick of me asking "did you think we would ever get here?" I'm proof that even a pessimist can get pregnant with fertility treatments. And God knows I am so very thankful. It makes me tear up when I have a moment to accept it. I'm really pregnant...
So at 21.4 I am...
...netting negative 7lbs for a gain of eight.
...feeling pretty great. Occasional bouts of indigestion, but easily resolved with just Tums.
...Craving...nothing
...Averse to nothing new
In love with feeling my baby move inside me. So much fun...and a little strange having this independent human moving around inside me. I find myself wondering what he or she is thinking/dreaming about all the time. I hope ze knows I dream about zym all the time, and already love all precious 14 ounces of Pico!
Peace, Love, and Grateful,
Mary Katherine
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