Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Well, this went downhill quickly...

Ah, life with chronic, annoying pain...how I've missed thee...

Honestly, was not expecting it to hit so fast.  Nor do I miss it.  At least I know I'm not crazy this time, or "just thinking about it too much".  Never-the-less, still quite annoyed.

The insomnia...that's the worst part. My cats don't mind it....
Here is Gaius and I blogging at 2:00 am...

It's not that I can't fall asleep I can... I can't stay asleep because I wake up with a cramp, a twinge, or I move wrong during my sleep. This is also how I know I'm not making it up.  I like to sleep.  I LOVE sleep, in fact. It's one of my favorite hobbies, especially with a pet to cozy up with...but it alludes me.  

I can be distracted from it during the day mostly and activity helps.  Unfortunately, as with most humans, I'm not meant to go 24/7 with no sleep.  And some days...like a couple of days ago, crossing the threshold of moving out of the fetal position from under the heated blanket to the cold and waiting for enough activity to loosen everything up again becomes too high.  So then I take a sick day from my other job as a domestic engineer and Emma and I crash on the couch.  When I'm not dozing off, which is the only time I don't hurt, I feel guilty about not doing anything. It's rather fantabulous like that...

It's nights like these that really make me think I deserve a hysterectomy before I'm 36...Hopefully I've used my organs by then.  In the meantime, hopefully I can get in with my OB/Gyn and have my bladder numbed Friday or Monday. Other than that...it's just keep taking my meds and hope for the best.  I guess I could try Benadryl tomorrow night, but it's a little too late for that at this point...grr...



Womanhood...such a a beautiful, mysterious thing, no?  I mean this is it, right? There has to be a special place in Heaven for ladies with endometriosis...that's all I'm saying...

You think God will forgive me if I sucker punch Eve in the face if I meet her in Heaven?

Peace, Love, and Forgiveness even in the event of premeditation,

Mary Katherine 


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