No we aren't waiting for pregnancy test results...we are just waiting to go through all the testing in which they determine if my uterus is healthy enough to carry a pregnancy. It's about as much fun as it sounds. This Thursday, they are going to blow my uterus up like a balloon with saline, and next Thursday they are going to pinch off a piece of my endometrium to make it extra tacky for my embryo.
I'm not near as excited/motivated/anxious as I thought I would be. I'm just resigned and scared. Not of the testing...they never find anything wrong with me...Just not sure I'm woman enough to brave another failure/negative result.
UGH...I hate infertility...I hate everything that goes with it and, I really hate all this lead up before the biggest let-down of my life.
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But what if it's not a let down? Dare I dream?
Peace, Love, and Someone Needs A Nap...
MK
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