We made it!!!
I feel a little bit more confident in things right now. I love, love, love feeling Pico dance around, and watch my tummy change shapes. It's hard to deny that this is actually happening anymore. BJ and I will be having a child...that's coming out of my uterus...that grew there...It still blows my mind. I am just so thankful to live in a time that this is possible. I may still grow up to be a crazy cat/dog lady, but at least I'll have a husband and child/ren to damper the stereotype.
I'm actually "enjoying" pregnancy right now. With all the movement, I'm not living in constant fear that Pico is in trouble. It's been a huge burden that I don't think I even noticed until it was gone. Of course I'm already reading things about full-term stillbirths, because, as I've always said, I am first and foremost a crazy REI patient. But everytime I get a little worried, Pico kicks me as if to say, "Chill out, I got this"... Clearly this is a strong little tyke...because Lord knows I have had very little to do with any of this except be a hospitable host.
Pico and I had our 28 week appointment, and things went well. It was our first OB appointment that didn't include an ultrasound. Seriously... we've had 14 ultrasounds so far with this pregnancy. It was nice to kinda be "normal"...not that we've not been in a normal category since I graduated to Dr. Bullen's office, but there was just something nice to finally have that pop-in, pop-out kind of appointment that you get when you are "normal". But holy crap, we're to the point I have to go every 2 weeks already?! Anyway, Pico measured "perfectly" and the heart rate was probably in the 130s if I had to guess. I also got my Rhogham shot since I'm Rh negative and we don't know what Pico is.
Honestly, since hiring a doula and thinking about birthing, I've even been a little sad about not being pregnant. [My mother just spilled her coffee on her computer reading that]. I mean, things are weird. I get short of breath after I eat...because I have to make a decision between having something in my stomach or room to fill my lungs. I'm a little tired. Oh, and my boobs are acting up again...I would like to thank the inventor of sports bras, without which this pregnancy would have been a nightmare. I did buy some nursing bras (they're stretchy) and one has 3 hooks. This is a major accomplishment for females in my family...
I'm also constantly being reminded that I am pregnant in East Tennessee. I grew up in Appalachia and my one stereotype that I live up to (that I acknowledge, anyway) is my hatred of wearing shoes at home. Really, I think it's a gymnastics thing...I like to feel the ground I'm walking on...So basically I'm Agador from the Birdcage...Anyway, BJ finally has his barefoot and pregnant wife, just so happens she's not in the kitchen unless she's "making" a bowl of cereal. Even better, when I'm out and about, people say and do the damndest things...
Exhibit A:
"Honey, I don't mean to offend you, but are you pregnant or are you fat? I didn't want to make you mad."
Exhibit B:
Location: grocery store produce aisle
Action: Random, strange woman puts hand on my belly
Response: Blink at her as I try to find the happy place my cats go to when I hold them against their will.
Exhibit C:
"Are you pregnant?"
ME - Yes
"I bet your boss is mad at you."
ME - I didn't ask her permission, thanks.
Exhibit D:
"Hey, are you pregnant?"
Me- Yes
"Do you know what you're having?"
Me - No, we did not find out.
Pregnant Pause...."Is that cuz you're gonna give it [the baby] up?"
Me - Develop hernia trying not to laugh. "Um, no."
Hopefully, I'll have more of these to add, but I find it hilarious...well, not the touching.
BJ and I have a breast feeding class this Monday, and I'm excited and terrified at the same time. It blows my mind that I'll have to feed something that doesn't have fur and a tail...at least a tail didn't show up on the US...but we'll love Pico even if ze does. Anyway, hopefully it will be good, and I won't be clueless about it when Pico comes to the outside world.
So at 28.2 weeks I am...
...up 2 lbs...I don't know how, but I think I am learning that maybe I need to care less about what I eat when I'm not pregnant because I don't seem to be doing too bad of a job when I'm not micromanaging everything.
...craving...Boost...not really craving it, but as it gets a bit more uncomfortable to have food in my belly, I think I'm gonna invest in some of these so Pico doesn't have to live off Fruit Loops, Lucky Charms, and Mini-Wheats...
...averse to nothing in particular...
...feeling Braxton Hicks Contractions like a champ when I'm up and moving and probably not drinking enough...They aren't painful at all, so I don't get all that uptight about it...I just sit when I can, and I'm going to try to do better about drinking more. I also notice them when I have to pee.
...in love with this whole process. I did not really enjoy my first trimester because it just felt like a 13 week anxiety attack, to no fault of the pregnancy itself. It was all in my head. But right now, I'm able to enjoy and appreciate this process. I'm such a huge advocate for egg donation which honestly felt like admitting to my failure as a woman when it was first mentioned. I couldn't imagine doing this any other way now. I am honestly just thrilled to get the chance to experience pregnancy, and control for some of things I was most scared of losing control over. I love talking, reading, and playing music for this baby in my belly. I absolutely adore the way Pico wakes up and kicks for BJ's voice, too. It makes me swoon a little bit. :)
Peace, Love, and Probably Keeping It,
Mary Katherine
I feel a little bit more confident in things right now. I love, love, love feeling Pico dance around, and watch my tummy change shapes. It's hard to deny that this is actually happening anymore. BJ and I will be having a child...that's coming out of my uterus...that grew there...It still blows my mind. I am just so thankful to live in a time that this is possible. I may still grow up to be a crazy cat/dog lady, but at least I'll have a husband and child/ren to damper the stereotype.
Pico and I had our 28 week appointment, and things went well. It was our first OB appointment that didn't include an ultrasound. Seriously... we've had 14 ultrasounds so far with this pregnancy. It was nice to kinda be "normal"...not that we've not been in a normal category since I graduated to Dr. Bullen's office, but there was just something nice to finally have that pop-in, pop-out kind of appointment that you get when you are "normal". But holy crap, we're to the point I have to go every 2 weeks already?! Anyway, Pico measured "perfectly" and the heart rate was probably in the 130s if I had to guess. I also got my Rhogham shot since I'm Rh negative and we don't know what Pico is.
Honestly, since hiring a doula and thinking about birthing, I've even been a little sad about not being pregnant. [My mother just spilled her coffee on her computer reading that]. I mean, things are weird. I get short of breath after I eat...because I have to make a decision between having something in my stomach or room to fill my lungs. I'm a little tired. Oh, and my boobs are acting up again...I would like to thank the inventor of sports bras, without which this pregnancy would have been a nightmare. I did buy some nursing bras (they're stretchy) and one has 3 hooks. This is a major accomplishment for females in my family...
I'm also constantly being reminded that I am pregnant in East Tennessee. I grew up in Appalachia and my one stereotype that I live up to (that I acknowledge, anyway) is my hatred of wearing shoes at home. Really, I think it's a gymnastics thing...I like to feel the ground I'm walking on...So basically I'm Agador from the Birdcage...Anyway, BJ finally has his barefoot and pregnant wife, just so happens she's not in the kitchen unless she's "making" a bowl of cereal. Even better, when I'm out and about, people say and do the damndest things...
Exhibit A:
"Honey, I don't mean to offend you, but are you pregnant or are you fat? I didn't want to make you mad."
Exhibit B:
Location: grocery store produce aisle
Action: Random, strange woman puts hand on my belly
Response: Blink at her as I try to find the happy place my cats go to when I hold them against their will.
Exhibit C:
"Are you pregnant?"
ME - Yes
"I bet your boss is mad at you."
ME - I didn't ask her permission, thanks.
Exhibit D:
"Hey, are you pregnant?"
Me- Yes
"Do you know what you're having?"
Me - No, we did not find out.
Pregnant Pause...."Is that cuz you're gonna give it [the baby] up?"
Me - Develop hernia trying not to laugh. "Um, no."
Hopefully, I'll have more of these to add, but I find it hilarious...well, not the touching.
BJ and I have a breast feeding class this Monday, and I'm excited and terrified at the same time. It blows my mind that I'll have to feed something that doesn't have fur and a tail...at least a tail didn't show up on the US...but we'll love Pico even if ze does. Anyway, hopefully it will be good, and I won't be clueless about it when Pico comes to the outside world.
So at 28.2 weeks I am...
...up 2 lbs...I don't know how, but I think I am learning that maybe I need to care less about what I eat when I'm not pregnant because I don't seem to be doing too bad of a job when I'm not micromanaging everything.
...craving...Boost...not really craving it, but as it gets a bit more uncomfortable to have food in my belly, I think I'm gonna invest in some of these so Pico doesn't have to live off Fruit Loops, Lucky Charms, and Mini-Wheats...
...averse to nothing in particular...
...feeling Braxton Hicks Contractions like a champ when I'm up and moving and probably not drinking enough...They aren't painful at all, so I don't get all that uptight about it...I just sit when I can, and I'm going to try to do better about drinking more. I also notice them when I have to pee.
...in love with this whole process. I did not really enjoy my first trimester because it just felt like a 13 week anxiety attack, to no fault of the pregnancy itself. It was all in my head. But right now, I'm able to enjoy and appreciate this process. I'm such a huge advocate for egg donation which honestly felt like admitting to my failure as a woman when it was first mentioned. I couldn't imagine doing this any other way now. I am honestly just thrilled to get the chance to experience pregnancy, and control for some of things I was most scared of losing control over. I love talking, reading, and playing music for this baby in my belly. I absolutely adore the way Pico wakes up and kicks for BJ's voice, too. It makes me swoon a little bit. :)
Peace, Love, and Probably Keeping It,
Mary Katherine
B.J., Frank says "boobies"!
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